Stupid Husband

So this weekend was my 30th birthday weekend. I think its a pretty big deal. He told me that he wanted to take me away from the weekend. My Mum offered to fly in to watch our son. Yes everything sounds great. But he did nothing to plan this weekend away. He asked a couple of his buddies for hotel recommendations, and then did nothing about it. The night before we were supposed to go he still hadn't done anything towards planning for the weekend. I was pissed. I didn't say anything, but I was pissed. So i booked the room. He said that he didn't know what I liked. WTF???? We have been married for 4 years, and known each other for 9. He still doesn't know what I like. This comment really pissed me off.

So instead of looking like an idiot in front of my Mum by having her come out for no reason I decided that I would go ahead and book the hotel. Then he also made a fuss about what we were going to do. I suggested going to a baseball game. Not my fav thing to do, but something we both could do together. Then he gets pissy at the Internet and decides to storm upstairs, and doesn't book tickets. I hop on the computer and have no issues. So there it is I have to book my whole weekend getaway. I am mad but I don't make an issue of it as I don't want to ruin our time away.

On my actual birthday I don't get a card. I don't get a gift of any kind. (I don't really want to get started on that because I barely gt a happy mothers day out of his mouth on mothers day) If it wasn't for my mother or one of my friends I am sure I wouldn't have had a cake.

So the plan today was that we were going to go out and buy my present. All I wanted was this new digital SLR camera. I had asked for gift cards to best buy, and that's what I got from my friends and our families. Husband was supposed to make up the difference, and this was his gift to me. He begrudgingly comes out to the store with me. Then tells me that he doesn't understand why I want this, since I'm not going to be a professional. Then says that if we buy the one that I want, then we will have to eat ramen noodles for the rest of the month. This is not true at all. I had over half the price of the camera in gift cards, and a coupon for the camera. Then he proceeds to walk off an pay no attention. When I get mad and want to leave the store, he's like "why? get what you want. when have I ever said no to you?" This makes me mad. I leave the store with tears in my eyes.

He then goes on to say whats the big deal. Its probably just hormones. I'm getting sick of this bullshit. I've tried to be understanding. What are you going to go puke now aren't you? (Like me puking during pregnancy is my fault. First when I was sick he didn't believe that I was sick until he actually saw me puking and called me a faker. Yeah that's really understanding.)Then tells me that I am making too big of a deal over this all, and none of this is his fault.

So we get home he packs a bag and leaves. He tells me that when I want to talk then to call him. I'm not frigging calling him. Who is making a big frigging deal over it now. Person that leaves or the one that has to be at home caring for your children???? Sorry that I don't think its appropriate to argue about stuff inside a store, or in the car on the way home with our 3 year old in the back seat.

This whole weekend has pissed me off. I don't know why I ever expect to enjoy my birthday, because they always suck. Next year I don't think I even want to celebrate.

Closure.

So the whole ex's thing has made me thankful for my Husband. The other night I was chatting away with one of them. And I finally realised that there is now way that I would have stayed with him. He is the one ex that I never had closure. He just move to a different state after college, and we lost touch. So I always wondered what if.

So I don't know what it is that he said exactly, but I am now completely finished. I don't think it would even bother me if we never spoke again. I have no need to find out what he is up to anymore. I have finally closed that part of my life.

I have realise that what I have now is so much better, and doesn't even compare to anything that I have ever had in the past. So I am very thankful for this past week, I can now say that I have no regrets from my past.

Ex's

So recently some of my ex's have popped back in my life. Not actually in person, but on facebook. You will come to realise that I am addicted to facebook. Like I think all people should be. It has been very strange hearing from my ex's. it has been at least 7 years that we last spoke. I don't know why this month two of them decided to find me and catch up. It has been nice and strange at the same time.

I was never one to leave things in a bad place, so that is why it has been nice. Both of them now have children, and so have I. One of them is now married, one thing that I never thought he would do. He was the one that I always wondered what if. But chatting online with him these past few days, I think that I am probably better off. I have really come to believe that things happen for a reason. And I think that the reason that he came back into my life this week is to finally give the the closure that I never felt that I really had.

So has this happened to any of you? Do you ever wonder what happened to your ex's? Or am I the only one that these things happen to?

First post

This blog was created so I can speak/write freely about what is bothering me, without feeling the judgement of my mother in law. My hubby let leak my first blog address, and now I feel like I need a second blog that I can ban her from. Its not that I don't get along with my mother in law, or that I don't like her. I just think that there are things in my life that she doesn't need to know. Is there anyone else out there that feels the same way? Yes I know I might be crazy, but she feels like she has the right to share all the details about my life to everyone she meets. The day that my mother in law found my other blog address, she managed to share it with every contact in her address book. I don't need all of my husbands family knowing my business.

So this is it. My new secret Blog. My outlet for venting about things that drive me nuts. For venting about my mother in law. I hope you enjoy.